Currently I am depressed near suicida (none of the primary symtoms, no plans, etc). I have attempted before (last year). Oviously not...... (not sure of the appropriate adverb). Hospitilized for two weeks, under psych observation. Surprised me to find most of my fellow patients were repeat visitors..... Not sure why? Each seemed to be lacking something in their lives. They seemed to feel safe there, being watched, controlled and medicated, the last being of seemingly greatere significance. To me, once I realized I was still alive with no lasting effects and apparently in good health, I simply wanted to go home. I should mention here that I am quite good at oberving and noting behavioral patterns in others, yet not good at self analysis.... Even though I seem to do it; analysis myself constantly.
But the three laws are at play when I try to analysis my interactions based on the three laws..... the observer becomes the observed and vice versa.
No comments:
Post a Comment